No more tears.

Everyday!!! Yes, almost everyday, deep in my heart crying out for forgiveness. Crying out for the truth. It's hurt, TOTALLY HURT me inside. I have no one to turn to, I have no where to go to but I try to be strong. I put a smile when I'm about to cry, I give myself a joke whenever I feel down because me myself is the only strength I have right now. Yes, God is there with me, watching me and never will He leave me. Because the strength that I have right now was actually belong to Him. Without Him, I might no longer around. I might give up easily in my life and I might put a very wrong decision in my life.


Everyday, I make jokes and I laugh around because of 1 reason. There's no other reason than seeing others happy. Yes, I really wanted to see those people around me smile and laugh happily without any concern. Some people thought I am selfish. For no reason they accused me & some even cursed me. Sometimes I get confused. Should I be good or should I be mean?? To tell the truth, I don't know what's the meaning of happiness??


I'm not a perfect one to get all the compliments but how i wish one day, God help me to open their eyes and accept me as the way I am. As far as i'm concern, i don't want to be my own enemy. And one day, i wish i can run as far as i could from all these people and situations. The scars will remain although i try to accept and swallow all the sadness slowly. I might not cry in front of you, but deep inside my heart, it's completely bleeding. Y_Y

I Stand - 3rd Wave

My offering so small
Nothing much to give to you
With words so few
I bring to you my heart

I find I'm moving to the beat of your heart
I'm drawn to you and the promises
Your fragrance so sweet
It's intoxicating me

CHORUS
I stand before the God of worth
Extravagant you are beautiful
Wonderful Lord beyond all these words I come

BRIDGE
I come, I come to you.

I Will Be There Lyric- 3rd Wave

In this weary world there are times when you feel alone
No one knows all things on your mind all the things you dream about
I can see the lies behind your smile
Cause what I see in your searching eyes is the meaning of it all
So let me take you by your hands
And show you part of me... It ain't no mystery

CHORUS
That I love you till the end of time
Even when things aren't clear
And those dreams seem to have holes

I will be there till the end of time
From a heart that undertsands....
(You need someone till the end of time)

In this weary world there are times when you feel alone
No one knows all the things on your mind all the things you dream about
When we lock our eyes in a silent stare
Reflections of a broken heart
So I whisper quiet words
So let me take you by your hands
And show you part of me...
It ain't no mystery...

BRIDGE
You're not alone just close your eyes
And think of me I'm here for you
I'll be by your side

What's next??

Annyeonghaesaeyo. Hello.
I know it has been almost a month I didn't write something here. Well, as i said before, i'm still in my practical training mood. But no worries, it is going to end very soon.. YES!!! very soon..and for that, I will have my total 3 months holiday but yet i have not decide what should i do for the next 3 months. What more can i say?

And within the past month and few weeks ago, i just totally unhappy with certain things in my life. and for sure,too many things happened, sad and happy, hated and loved, anger & forgiveness; all these feelings mixed up and blend very well until i get confused with my own action & decision.huhu.. =(